When I was younger I cared far too much about what people thought of me, it gained me friends but none of which I actually have now so none of it was actually worth it. I had one best friend who knew the real me, and funnily enough she is still my best friend today. Younger me would hide my reading obsession, I would be into everything that everyone else was into and I would act like they would. I drank because it was the cool thing to do, I smoked because everyone else was doing it and my conversations with everyone but my best friend was about popular “cool things” It wasn’t until I was 17 that I started admitting how much I adored books and how much I preferred them over other things. How I would much rather be at home with a book than stood in the park with a bottle of vodka. It lost me friends I was known as “boring” for a while. Funnily enough I didn’t dislike hanging out with my friends I had a laugh I had some good teenage years I have some memories I would like to erase and some I will cherish forever, that’s life. What I never understood is why do this group of friends I couldn’t do both? I couldn’t hang out with them AND love books. Apparently it wasn’t an option. So age 17 I started reading in public, on a bus,waiting for a bus,In a cafe waiting for food etc etc. Until one day I was on the bus coming home from a friends when two drunken men, they were in their 40’s decided it would be really funny to point out the fact that a girl was reading on the bus….the whole bus for some reason found it hilarious. I have never read in public since until today! I was sat in a pub waiting for my food when my Mr decided to go out for a fag leaving me completely bored and I picked my book up out of my bag and began to read, and you know what? Nobody even looked at me twice, absolutely nobody. Can you believe how much reading time I have been missing out on! So today I have conquered my reading in public fear, for me this is huge! Tomorrow it’s the going back to work after a week off anxiety fear! I am terrified god I hate anxiety!